Having Fun Would be Fun

Lately, I seem to have problems getting along with people. It seems that I’ve gone from attracting people to actually repelling them. Or it could be me needing to get away from life in the slow lane and moving into an even slower lane.

I still have a couple of months before I take off on my Pacific Northwest trip to see my sisters. I’ll be camping along the way — and hiking — so I should have plenty of time to deal with no one but me. Until then? I don’t know. Bite my tongue, I guess.

Luckily, I will be able to get away for a while this weekend. It’s not much of a getaway, actually — just a concert, shopping, and gambling. (Big gambler that I am, I might even spend five whole dollars!) But it is a change. I’ll miss my faux backpacking trips, but it’s probably a good idea to give my body a rest.

One thing I’m hoping from this change of pace is a mental reset. When I came back from my cross-country trip, I’d planned to finish all my works in progress. I did finish two, but the third one sits moribund. In my defense, after I finished the first two books, I fell and pulverized my wrist, destroyed my elbow, and broke my arm in dozens of places. The resulting surgeries, drugs, and continuing recuperation have taken a toll on my creativity.

Despite what I wrote yesterday about still being a writer whether I finish that last work in progress or not, I really would like to finish it. It would be good not to have it in the back of my mind (not that it’s much of an inconvenience, because if it were truly nagging at me, I’d be writing it).

Unfortunately, when it’s done, I’ll have to decide what to do with it, which could be a large part of my motivation for not writing. I’d like to find a publisher who would actually help me promote, but that seems to be a dying breed. And to me, just posting a book on Amazon is not my idea of being published. (Besides, I truly do not like how much control they have of the book market.) Nowadays, though, there is no way around dealing with them unless I register the book with the copyright office and then just give it away as a download on my website.

But first, I have to finish writing the book, and to do that, I have to get my creativity switched on.

It seems like a lot to ask from one quick weekend getaway — reset my life so I can a) stop repelling people: b) get back into the discipline of writing; and c) find the sweet spot of creativity.

But even if all that doesn’t happen, just having fun would be fun.



Pat Bertram is the author of the suspense novels UnfinishedMadame ZeeZee’s Nightmare, Light BringerMore Deaths Than OneA Spark of Heavenly Fireand Daughter Am IBertram is also the author of Grief: The Great Yearning, “an exquisite book, wrenching to read, and at the same time full of profound truths.” Connect with Pat on Google+. Like Pat on Facebook.

6 Responses to “Having Fun Would be Fun”

  1. Auntysocial Says:

    I don’t see too much of an issue with your increasing tendency to upset, repel or even offend other people to be honest. It’s a good thing to stop putting too much time, effort and energy into pleasing or tolerating people we’d rather not bother with at all because it’s such a waste of time, effort and energy that could be much better spent.

    I’d say you should just aim to finish the book. Write it without any further plans or thoughts as to what you’ll do when it’s done. As and when the time comes and if you want to go that route self-publishing is one way to go and you only need to have a small number of copies printed initially which can be stuck on Amazon and if it happens to do well and you find is selling better than expected you can have more copies printed.

    I’d also say you shouldn’t aim to reset any mental switches. On the contrary it might be good for you if you don’t change your thought process and attitude at all whilst you take time out, focus on writing and let you mind do and go where it takes you.

    Do whatever you enjoy and find lots of fun whatever that might be. If it’s a completely random thing you think will leave people questioning your mental state – go for it. Let them crack on and do whatever they think they should or feel is the right activity or a more socially acceptable form of fun.

    If you want to swing naked from lamp-posts or hide yourself inside post-boxes you should cram yourself in a post-box maybe do some of your writing in there too.

    Kick back, relax and see what happens and where it takes you 🙂

    • Pat Bertram Says:

      Thank you for helping me solidify my thoughts and plans. You’re right — I should just have fun with the book and not think beyond that. I also like the idea of letting my mind take me where it will. I might not be able to cram myself in a post-box, at least not physically, but I can mentally, and it probably would be a good idea. I let my mind roam too much. (Not a bad thing unless one is trying to finish a book.) I’ve read your advice twice, and will come back to this comment again. I need to pay attention to (and heed) what you’re saying. You give good advice.

  2. LordBeariOfBow Says:

    So whats with the Pokies? Thats what we call the slot machines, Poker Machines pokies for short.
    When we were in Las Vegas in 05 & 08 my wife played the pokies for a while, seems that they like Australian Pokies in Vegas, seems a great % are Aussie machines, which only goes to prove that we in Australia like to spread/export our culture 😈

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